hey everyone, its been a while sorry. im just really not good with this stuff. i dunno, its just hard for me to write unless im motivated or inspired to do. i'll try and comment more... well comment period b/c lol i dont do it at all. again apologies. so before you read this the first part of this entry is just gonna be me blabbering, but the second deals with sarah and it might get a lil gushy so i forewarn you.

life's been pretty good. school has been bearable now that its coming to an end. everyone's just more relaxed... or they just dont care anymore (me lol). band trip, prom, banquet are comin up and im ecstatic about those. i guess i should start planning for those but lol, you know me im a slacker. speaking of slacking, lol i still have done any college visits... yeah bad, its still between UT or aTm. really i dunno which yet. if i have to make a blind i'll probably do aTm tho, just cuz i guess it feels more right to me.. meh i dunno. ah jobs are fun... not, the only perk to em is the money. banana repblic i dunno lolz, i guess ive just gotten tired of the retail. i think i might be qutting soon cuz many things are coming up and i dont want to deal with work. i'll probably work a couple days at piccomolo, but we'll see. i dunno thats a job i love hehe. yum yum to food. the birthday party for dani, jessica, krstina, teresa, me, was awesome, all of you rock, and happy belated bdays to those people cuz i dont think i said it on the party day. sorry! im probably forgetting some stuff but its better for you guys, lol, cuz you wont have to read too much of my blabbers. love life: hehe well here's the mushiness

there's been this goin argument... well not argument but general opinion that high school love is bs. truly i dunno... it might be, but i'll have to wait till later in life to see about the final decision. all i know right now, is that i sure as hell believe in it. these past seven months with sarah have seriously been the best and happiest times in my life. i wake up each day and i realize im truly lucky. one, because all the amazing friends who surround me. some friends that ive known since elementry school, and others from even this year. but the point is they're all the best. they're the reason ive kept goin... lol im getting off topic but i just wanted to emphasize that point. anyways second, i tell myself that i am lucky also because i have this girl, beyond the description of words, in my life. as of these times, dreams are uncomparable to the greatness in the realms of which i live (lol you gotta love the corniness, but its true) everytime i see her, its just.. i duno its this feeling of joy, excitement, awe... limited vocabulary, seroiusly i could go on.seeing, spending time, talking, whatever with her, i just feel... perhaps the word is right? lol, no that doesnt mean that im saying she is the one, and the only one. possibly, but thats all really far away and undoubtebly things will change in the times that go by. but just for right now, she is the girl of my life. and of course we hit some bumps on the road (basically me being stupid, lol)... but in what realistic relationship do you not? you get in to discords and you learn from them. and you move on. considerably a perfect, yet not so perfect, relationship: thats the perfect one* and you know what? i dont really know where im goin with this and if its making any sense, but basically, if this isnt love... then what else can it be? i dunno lol. we're all entitled to our opinions, and i have mine. i love you sarah peterson, hehe.

if you read that whole thing, wowzers, i have to congrulate you, hehe. thanks for reading urrrbudeh~

John

hey guys, sorry i havent updated in a while. been pretty busy and i dunno, lol i dont really know what to write about. so i guess i'll just do my usual life blabberings.

schools been pretty good, laid back thank god. its not as hard of an year as i thought it would be. its been flying by tho. and for any non seniors, dear lord i absolutely emphasize taking senior release if you can, b/c its amazing.

track! ime actually joining track cuz i desparately need some cardio work. you know its sad when you're panting like an 90 year old diagnosed with lung cancer from running once between the sidelines* of a football field playing ultimate frisbee.

work is goin quite well. come buy things from me at banana republic in southlake, not b/c i get commission, but b/c they keep us on some ridiculous point base system on how much you sell to determine your importance to them.. ridiculous. actually, haha, its really not all that bad. they're fun people to work with. the only really bad comment i have is... retail... good lord retail sucks... lol

college for me is lookin like ut or aTm. i still have to visit both to see which one i like better. although for educational purposes, i think i might minor in music so ut might be better for that. but... aTm has a better engineering school so, bah i dunno we'll see

sarah... hehe sarah is wonderful. i'll spare youh guys and just stop there

anyways, i think thats enough for one day, update in a month... lolz
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you all are wonderful. much love.

i wonder... does engaging in certain activites mean that that person undergoes a total transformation? that they are redefined as a person and are turned into someone drastically different? if they did such things and you never knew, would you really notice a change in them? if they acted and treated you the exact same previous to whatever they were doing, inside, would you see a difference and change you're vew of them? it gets to me how because someone drinks or smokes they are viewed in such a condescending manner. i dont really understand why that when someone does something that you dont necessarily agree with, they have to become some child out of hell. does it affect you in anyway? or how they treat you as a friend? or how you mean to them? obviously it changes what they mean to you.

aye, ime not going to go on with this, just think about it a little and compose the rest the entry with your thoughts.

hmmm, i guess its time to update huh? lolz. not really sure where to begin...

lol, i'll just talk about recent stuff ( sorry this is all just goin to be random blabber) Band... eeeh, i dont really like concert season, and region i am definately not lookin forward to. Jazz concert, dear lord, ime not sure how bad we're gunna suck, but its'll goin to be pretty bad. Schools been goin pretty well, my classes, i have realized, are a lot easier that i made them out to be... cept hehe physics... all i can say is wow, sometimes in that class you are just so lost. i should probably get started on college apps... haha, altho i think that ive made up my mind and ime either goin to ut or a&m, altho i hear college station is quite the boring place, but meh, its a really good engineering school. Blood drive was pretty fun, even tho it took forever. My nurse was really cool and she actually knew what she was doin unlike that other stupid lady last year... man. This past weekend had a mixture events that all in all turned out to be very good in the end. Alfie, for anyone who hasnt seen it, in my opinion, was really really really good. jude law is a badass. and the movie just really made you think and reflect on the things that matter most in life... and that its not all about yourself, but others. and... just go see it, lolz.. hmmm i dont really know what else to say, thnxgiving break cant come sooner... and, ok, haha, i think i'll stop this pointless entry except...

Sarah is the most amazing girlfriend ever... period.
*and for anyone who wishes to object... dukes up bitches, 'twill be the doom of thee
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and thats it for me. thnx for readin, much love.